Bernard

You remember me rambling on about Bernard right?  The psychic that I saw before?  I've seen him twice before in about, 2.5 years and he knows me like no other person I'd never met.  He knows me in a way, I'd rather he didn't know me.  Anything I'd rather keep hidden from the world, appears to be signposted, to Bernard. 

B.  You think you're easy to live with... you're not.
B.  You are borderline OCD.
B.  Do you buy fruit?  Well, yeah you do but you throw it away when it goes off... un-eaten.
B.  You've been here before, (he's looking at the palms of my hands,) about 300 years ago, he turns my hands over... make that 400 years.

These are just a few Bernardisms.  Basically, Bernard is straight talking and frankly, not a flatterer.

This reading, it's over the phone but is just as accurate.  I have so wanted to talk to Bernard for around 18 months.  You want the highlights, don't you?  And you do know this is for entertainment purposes only?  So many charlatans out there, but B is not one of them.

B.  Someone isn't communicating but they're just not telling you something that you don't want to know.  I should ask to meet with him on neutral territory.  He'll say 'no' then he'll agree.  You should tell him how you feel.  If he doesn't feel the same, you should say goodbye, forever.

Good advice, straight as always, and to the point.

B.  There is another man around you, who likes you. 

J.  I think I know who you mean, we get on like a house on fire, but he's taken, and he is way too young for me.

B.  What state is his relationship in?  And the age thing, he doesn't see that, you look at least ten years younger.

B goes on to mention three locations connected with this other man in relation to me and my future.  Personally, I think that B is just super connected to anything that is going on around a person, around me.  I do get on with this other person, really well, but there is no way that anything would happen between us.  Weird that B picked up several locations though.

B's final relationship advice... keep your options open, for now.

J.  Don't I get a happy ever after?

B. No.

J.  I mean, just a less complicated life?

B.  No.  Your life is complicated.

Good to know I guess, at least I can stop kidding myself in that department.  See what I mean about him being straight talking?

On the work front, B reckons I should go to Manchester but conceded that I would make up my own mind, regardless of any influences.

I don't know how much of this part was B's personal opinion or looking into my future but he thinks I should move to Manchester with work.  My heart will always be in Liverpool and given a choice between these two great cities, I'll always choose Liverpool, it's just in me.

B thinks that I get on better than men than women, 'not that I look like one,' B's words, not mine, however friend Sheila thinks that I'm even stevens on that front.

So it seems that I'm not set for anything life changing in the immediate future.  B shared some personal things with me, from his own life and I so wish I could chat with him, as a friend and nothing more, and I could be delusional but I feel instantly connected to B, always have done.

Funny how life brings you the people you're supposed to have in your life.

So, we'll have to wait and see.  Over many years, many readings, including this one, the general consensus is that I'll end up living abroad, I can only imagine, that it will be closer to you. 

D-Clutter

The week in work wasn't too bad, had some challenges and physically,  I've been really tired all week, so I decided to take Friday off, and I was so glad that I did.  I'm feeling a bit more normal today, a bit more like myself.

It's Friday and I know that I've said it before, but I'm going to say it again, I feel like an enforced climax is on it's way.  I know that an enforced change with regards to where I work and how I'll be earning a living for the next year is imminent, but there is something else.  I feel like I need a clean sweep, a new beginning.  I am probably all froth and folly, and this feeling will no doubt pass.

So, what I'm about to tell you, may shock you, on Saturday, I actually did blitz the back bedroom.  Each time I entered the room, I thought to myself, "it's not as bad as you thought," then I laughed because don't get me wrong, it really is bad, but it really wasn't as bad as I thought.  It just needs organisation and a strong arm to sort it out.

After a very short period of time, I have an actual pathway through the room to the built in wardrobe, there are about a dozen bags in the dining room full of magazines, a car boot assortment, recycling, books, DVDs, materials, clothing, bric-a-brac, all ready and willing to go off to good causes and pastures new.  I feel so much better.