I had no Internet connection for most of Sunday, after a frustrating 40 minutes on to AOL, it was decided, that it was an external problem and I should be back online within 36 to 72 hours. They may have well told me to go without water for that long. Anyway, I was back on within a few hours and without too many withdrawal symptoms.
More bad news from work this week, but as long as you expect change, frequent bad news, no prospects and wage cuts, then it's do-able.
Monday, I had a bit of a wobble until I managed to get a grip. You know that feeling when you suddenly take stock and realise that you're heading down one road, and have been for the longest time, but there is the strong possibility of a sharp right just ahead? It's not on the map, the agenda or the sat nav. And you know that sat nav just sometimes tells you to "turn right now," and you might be in the left lane... you're not even prepared to turn right.
So there's this road, which may, or may not be looming, you have no idea what kind of terrain you'll be driving over or even if the road will be filled with pot holes. Are there pot holes? How long is this road?
Yep, it was a major wobble. I like to tell myself that I'm all, "go with the flow," but I'm not, I'm... what's that word which implies OCD is thrown in? Oh yeah... "controlling." I admit it, I like a plan, I like to know what I'm aiming for, what's ahead, even if it's not good, at least I'm prepared. I don't deal with surprises well, I know... shocker.
Anyway, by Tuesday, I'd realised, that while we all have free will, I still believe in a little of; "what will be, will be."
So, if in the end, I do end up taking that sharp right, I guess I'll have to learn to drive blind again, no map reading, (I never could read a map,) and no sat nav. I'll just have to negotiate, one pot hole at a time.
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