Hello

After a couple of weeks of exchanging texts, the time is nigh and we are scheduled to finally meet.  He... blind date, has said all the right things, it's like he has a manual on the most perfect answers he can conjure, why does he take a while to answer you... because he's baby sitting his God Daughters.  Why was he off the radar?  Because he was delivering his friend's kids, secret Christmas presents which have been hidden at his house.  See what I mean?

My hopes where high and I was ready to share my deepest, darkest secrets... like... I write, for all the world to see, but as it happens, it never came up.

The date lasted 2 hours and 10 minutes.  Date was affable, mildly funny, (I know I'm being harsh but I'm comparing him to someone who cracks me up.)  We had two hours worth of fun facts to talk about.

That said, I was kind of clock watching.  The man was lovely, absolutely nothing wrong with him... but there was no spark.  I knew from three seconds in, that there was... no spark.  Despite the easy chat, I feel like we said everything we had to say, in that one night.  If blind date wanted friendship... I'm in.  If, as I suspect, he wanted something else... then I'm out.

I actually sat there thinking, "marry you, or single forever?"  I chose single forever in a heartbeat.  (Not that I imagine he would want to marry me anyway.)

I know I sound shallow and flawed, no argument here, but I've reached the point where I almost know who I am.  I admit that I may be lonely at times, but is that a good enough reason to pursue a relationship with someone who doesn't do it for you?

Jan and I went on a shopping expedition yesterday.  I bought a stunning candelabra for my fireplace which I love.  We window shopped in M&S and they have a print to buy which reads; "you had me at hello".  Well, I had to explain to Jan that it was a famous line; Tom Cruise, Ms Zellweger, "show me the money"?  It was lost.  Anyway, it's a brilliant line but blind date did not have me at "hello".  I guess that is the difference between real life as opposed to reel life.

I had a great time, I loved the excitement of meeting someone new.  I wish I had got the vibes that he was happy with friendship.  He'll make someone very happy one day, but that someone, won't be me.