I miss my Mum. Not for the reasons that you think, but I do. Well, more than likely for 100% the reasons that you think but today, I'm coming from a different angle.
One of the things someone very special to me told me, after they had emigrated, was that they were sorry that their kids didn't have anyone close, from an older generation, in their lives.
I am proof that, whatever your age, it's a gift to have someone older to give advice, to reflect, to spend time with. Just to bathe in their wisdom and their glow.
I do have people in my life that are older but we have the unique situation in that we are the same, my next generation, are the same, they are my sisters, and the dynamic just isn't the same as with a parent or an aunt.
I long for an old person to be in my life, and I say that with love, I do not intend the word 'old' to be derogatory in any shape or form.
I lost my last 'Aunt' who was a surrogate, a wonderful friend of my Mum's who was well into her 80's, a couple of years ago. When she left us, my last independent link to Mum and a wonderful.... what's the word for correspondent, but in chatter? Friend... was lost, I do miss her.
I'm not young anymore, but I feel young to have no one, above me, older than me, wiser than me, caring about me.
On a lighter note, it's your birthday sweetie, and while I think of you often, I've thought of you more this week, trying to factor in the time difference.
I love you, I wish I was there, I hope that you had a wonderful day x
Sunday, 18 January 2015
Friday, 9 January 2015
First Week of the New Year
Dear Lord, what a week. A good break from work, coupled with the festivities, the good cheer, good will... only serves to remind you of how much you hate work, on your first week back in the New Year.
Monday, it wasn't just me, we were all like zombies, just going through the pretend motions and wondering, "Where are we?" Closely followed by, "What am I supposed to do here?" The day passed in a haze.
Needless to say that I barely slept on Sunday night, nor Monday night. I think I slept Tuesday night through exhaustion, it was such a lovely coma while it lasted.
So how am I doing with the resolutions? I know... you're desperate to ask, well...
Tracy Anderson Butt and Thigh workout - daily .... I did this on Tuesday night and it kicked my....
Grand plié or Demi plié - x21 daily ..... I did this only three times, because I forgot this was on my list, shame on me... it's so good.
Tabata - x3 per week ... give me a break, I managed today, that's all.
Take the stairs in work x3 per week - I work on the 8th floor..... I have a very good reason for not doing this, and I was going to postpone until next week. But, let me explain, my body was complaining at being back in work. 2 hours a day commuting and 8 per day at a desk had my back and neck complaining without me doing anything extra. Monday to Thursday I power walked for 30-40 minutes per day, and I could feel it. On Friday, we had freezing cold and heavy rain at lunch, and so I ventured outside and quickly decided to give the walk a rest and instead, climb the stairs, 9 floors of them. I was only aiming for 8 as I work on the 8th, however lack of signage and me counting steps distracted me, plus me being less out of breath than I expected, meant that I ended up on the 9th and had to walk back down to the 8th... where my desk lives. I'll do more next week, at least I got one in for the week.
The Plank x5 minutes per week .... I have no excuse, haven't even tried this week.
Tracy Anderson Arm Exercises, daily x100 per arm... I totally forgot about this until Wednesday, then I did 100 with weights, which must be at least double the equivalent, then I completed every day for the rest of the week, I do have to say that my arms rock.
I definitely had the blues returning to normality this week, but I powered through, as we all do.
I had physio this week and I was so much less concrete like. Even my physio was astounded, doubly so after I'd explained between my pre-Christmas lurgy, lurgy then Christmas, I hadn't exercised for a month, and I was still less stiff than normal. We both agreed that somehow, not being in work, the commute etc. had cancelled out the not exercising so I was actually less seized up than 8 weeks ago on my last visit. I concluded that I am definitely allergic to work.
It's week one and I would normally be disappointed with my effots but I'm not these days. I know that resolutions are not all or nothing. This year I've made them achievable and I'm going to take my time building up to them, this way, I'll still be doing them in November... I may give myself December off though. Can't wait for the Christmas break.
Monday, it wasn't just me, we were all like zombies, just going through the pretend motions and wondering, "Where are we?" Closely followed by, "What am I supposed to do here?" The day passed in a haze.
Needless to say that I barely slept on Sunday night, nor Monday night. I think I slept Tuesday night through exhaustion, it was such a lovely coma while it lasted.
So how am I doing with the resolutions? I know... you're desperate to ask, well...
Tracy Anderson Butt and Thigh workout - daily .... I did this on Tuesday night and it kicked my....
Grand plié or Demi plié - x21 daily ..... I did this only three times, because I forgot this was on my list, shame on me... it's so good.
Tabata - x3 per week ... give me a break, I managed today, that's all.
Take the stairs in work x3 per week - I work on the 8th floor..... I have a very good reason for not doing this, and I was going to postpone until next week. But, let me explain, my body was complaining at being back in work. 2 hours a day commuting and 8 per day at a desk had my back and neck complaining without me doing anything extra. Monday to Thursday I power walked for 30-40 minutes per day, and I could feel it. On Friday, we had freezing cold and heavy rain at lunch, and so I ventured outside and quickly decided to give the walk a rest and instead, climb the stairs, 9 floors of them. I was only aiming for 8 as I work on the 8th, however lack of signage and me counting steps distracted me, plus me being less out of breath than I expected, meant that I ended up on the 9th and had to walk back down to the 8th... where my desk lives. I'll do more next week, at least I got one in for the week.
The Plank x5 minutes per week .... I have no excuse, haven't even tried this week.
Tracy Anderson Arm Exercises, daily x100 per arm... I totally forgot about this until Wednesday, then I did 100 with weights, which must be at least double the equivalent, then I completed every day for the rest of the week, I do have to say that my arms rock.
I definitely had the blues returning to normality this week, but I powered through, as we all do.
I had physio this week and I was so much less concrete like. Even my physio was astounded, doubly so after I'd explained between my pre-Christmas lurgy, lurgy then Christmas, I hadn't exercised for a month, and I was still less stiff than normal. We both agreed that somehow, not being in work, the commute etc. had cancelled out the not exercising so I was actually less seized up than 8 weeks ago on my last visit. I concluded that I am definitely allergic to work.
It's week one and I would normally be disappointed with my effots but I'm not these days. I know that resolutions are not all or nothing. This year I've made them achievable and I'm going to take my time building up to them, this way, I'll still be doing them in November... I may give myself December off though. Can't wait for the Christmas break.
Sunday, 4 January 2015
We Need to Work it Out
It's January and that means that we are beset with 'D list' celebs, (not you Davina,) flogging their fitness DVDs, showing how they lost 72 stone, 'the healthy way', in 12 weeks.
To begin with, I'm not a celeb and secondly, I'll never be D list, I'm a Leo Darling.
I think it's important to aim for some kind of exercise, whether that's getting off the bus a stop earlier, taking the stairs instead of the lift, attending a class or finding something on Youtube that you can commit to.
I was slightly lazy last year, by my own standards, and it's made me realise that I need to find something that I want to do, that I can stick to, that doesn't take up much time and that I enjoy, most of the time.
This is what I'm aiming for;
Tracy Anderson Butt and Thigh workout - daily
Grand plié or Demi plié - x21 daily
Tabata - x3 per week
Take the stairs in work x3 per week - I work on the 8th floor
The Plank x5 minutes per week
Tracy Anderson Arm Exercises, daily x100 per arm
That said, it's already the end of 4th January, and I have done nothing. Still, tomorrow is Monday and I'm back to work, back to reality, it's a good time to start anew.
To begin with, I'm not a celeb and secondly, I'll never be D list, I'm a Leo Darling.
I think it's important to aim for some kind of exercise, whether that's getting off the bus a stop earlier, taking the stairs instead of the lift, attending a class or finding something on Youtube that you can commit to.
I was slightly lazy last year, by my own standards, and it's made me realise that I need to find something that I want to do, that I can stick to, that doesn't take up much time and that I enjoy, most of the time.
This is what I'm aiming for;
Tracy Anderson Butt and Thigh workout - daily
Grand plié or Demi plié - x21 daily
Tabata - x3 per week
Take the stairs in work x3 per week - I work on the 8th floor
The Plank x5 minutes per week
Tracy Anderson Arm Exercises, daily x100 per arm
That said, it's already the end of 4th January, and I have done nothing. Still, tomorrow is Monday and I'm back to work, back to reality, it's a good time to start anew.
Thursday, 1 January 2015
Time to Resolve
Happy New Year! Yes, it's true, it's not a dream, a New Year is upon us. Do you muster New Year Resolutions? I'm always a bit disappointed when people don't. It doesn't have to be much, I just think it's fun to have something to reach for, no matter how big or how small, how trite or how insurmountable.
Shall I go first?
1. Eat Clean and Lean, I love James Duigan's philosophy, I dabbled last year and will try to incorporate more this year.
2. Be more consistent with exercise, I kept it up last year but could have done more, I really did the bare minimum.
3. Re-learn how to do a headstand or a shoulder stand. I have a dodgy neck and I'm not sure either move is advisable but I've had it in my head for months now, that I need to be able to do this again, I used to be able to do them with ease, maybe I'm craving my youth? Or maybe I'm delusional, I used to be able to do the crab too, like you wouldn't believe, if I tried that now, my spine would snap.
4. Wear a skirt... in public. Olivia Palermo makes it look so easy, come on, how bad could I look?
5. Worry less about work, it's just a job, it doesn't soothe your soul or inspire you, it serves to pay the bills. Do it to your best ability, but don't lose sleep over it this year.
6. Drink less, I'm actually pretty good now, I just need to keep a lid on Friday - Sunday. One of my cousin's is teetotal. Over 70, and looks amazing. Maybe I could look amazing if I was teetotal? Well, we'll never know. Maybe if I could get to within Government guidelines... like I said, we'll probably never know. But I do resolve to try.
7. Do something new, that you're afraid of. That could be going on a date with a new person or venturing back onto an ice rink, or anything in between. It must be over 25 years since I've laced a blade onto my foot and ventured onto ice, and after the last time, and the ensuing... water-on-the-knee that lasted for months, it's something I've always been scared of, yet wanted to try again. Maybe this is the year?
8. Find a way to upload Granddad's photo onto Lives of the First World War project. The site is unresponsive and unhelpful at present, but I'll get there in the end, Grandad will be visible, in all of his handsome glory.
9. Read one diary.
10. Find Mark Birch.
By the way... London, your fireworks display was spectaular this year, well done.
Happy New Year, I hope that it's memorable, for all the right reasons x
Shall I go first?
1. Eat Clean and Lean, I love James Duigan's philosophy, I dabbled last year and will try to incorporate more this year.
2. Be more consistent with exercise, I kept it up last year but could have done more, I really did the bare minimum.
3. Re-learn how to do a headstand or a shoulder stand. I have a dodgy neck and I'm not sure either move is advisable but I've had it in my head for months now, that I need to be able to do this again, I used to be able to do them with ease, maybe I'm craving my youth? Or maybe I'm delusional, I used to be able to do the crab too, like you wouldn't believe, if I tried that now, my spine would snap.
4. Wear a skirt... in public. Olivia Palermo makes it look so easy, come on, how bad could I look?
5. Worry less about work, it's just a job, it doesn't soothe your soul or inspire you, it serves to pay the bills. Do it to your best ability, but don't lose sleep over it this year.
6. Drink less, I'm actually pretty good now, I just need to keep a lid on Friday - Sunday. One of my cousin's is teetotal. Over 70, and looks amazing. Maybe I could look amazing if I was teetotal? Well, we'll never know. Maybe if I could get to within Government guidelines... like I said, we'll probably never know. But I do resolve to try.
7. Do something new, that you're afraid of. That could be going on a date with a new person or venturing back onto an ice rink, or anything in between. It must be over 25 years since I've laced a blade onto my foot and ventured onto ice, and after the last time, and the ensuing... water-on-the-knee that lasted for months, it's something I've always been scared of, yet wanted to try again. Maybe this is the year?
8. Find a way to upload Granddad's photo onto Lives of the First World War project. The site is unresponsive and unhelpful at present, but I'll get there in the end, Grandad will be visible, in all of his handsome glory.
9. Read one diary.
10. Find Mark Birch.
By the way... London, your fireworks display was spectaular this year, well done.
Happy New Year, I hope that it's memorable, for all the right reasons x
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