Here's your hat, What's your hurry?

Christmas is approaching fast which is in line with the rest of this year.  Is it me or has this year just whizzed by? 

TV is full of Christmas movies, well, since August really.  C and D list movies mostly but it all adds to the season doesn't it?  I watched "It's a Wonderful Life" the only A list in sight. You must know that Christmas, timeless classic?  Well did you realise that Bert and Ernie,  (Police Offcer and Taxi Driver) were characters in It's a Wonderful Life?  inspiration for THE Bert and Ernie I wonder?  Am I the first person to cotton on to this or the last on Earth? 

I've had a wobbly few weeks, full of cough and cold for about three weeks, doubting that my love cares for me, wondering if I have been replaced.

It's been a while since I saw a psychic and you know that I love this part of life, I'm a total believer and have had too many occasions were a psychic/medium, messenger, has told me something that only I and the person who has passed would know, so I'm ready and waiting.

On this occasion, apparently my Dad, Jack was there as was his Father and Mother.  It's common knowledge that I don't profess to know Jack.  So much of what she told me flew over my head.  She did say that Jack's face was emotionless where as George's was full of emotion. 

George was the best Father sub I could ever have hoped for, he was an assured, constant.  A quiet man.  I hear John Wayne, I think of George.  He was married to my much older, eldest sister, and George was much older than she.  Maybe it was something he'd honed over time.  I suspect he'd always been this way.  Quiet, assured, dependable, strong, protective.

Anyway, George was apparently there and he mentioned walking someone down the aisle.  Well, George walked my sisters down the aisle, he was always the father figure.  It's been a good while but I will miss him until I see him again.

She told me that I only get the best of my current love but in a couple of years, I'll meet someone new, someone connected to racing and someone Irish.

I'm neutral.  Always cautious.  I'm a Leo and even the quieter cusp Leo's like me, want to be adored.  My current thinking is that I expect nothing.  I'm good enough already.  The only thing that I want to work on, is me.