Decision Day

The morning of the 24th loomed like a giant storm cloud.  For five months, we'd waited for the decision over our future at work, would the building close and the work be moved elsewhere?  Would we still have a job?  I've worried for months but the last few weeks have been pretty bad, well, I can only speak for myself but the last few weeks, for me, the worry has intensified.  For months, I've listened to harbingers of doom within the office, every morning, for up to an hour each morning, gloom and negativity spewed from their mouths, worst case scenario ruled and I didn't realise until this minute, not only how draining it was, but how much effort it took to deflect and neutralise all of that negative air pollution.  While I was trying to stay positive and hopeful to the day of decison, they slowly sucking the hope out of me.

My work buddy and I sneaked in to the announcement meeting and deliberately sat at the back of the room, like two naughty children, within a few paces of the exit in case we needed a quick...  The meeting began five minutes early, everyone was congregated and seated by 10.55 and a hush had fallen over the room and so the bearer of news decided to begin early.  In less than ten minutes, he began to get heckled, any information he wanted to disseminate would be interrupted and diluted and so my buddy made a break for the exit and I followed, it was clear that from then on, the man would not be allowed to deliver the information without constant interruption.

The news was not good, the office was being closed and sold.  I was ambivalent in a way, so the news is bad... it's kind of what we all exptected, what next?  I just wanted to hear the following information, however the man was being constantly interrupted.

My bud and I returned to his desk and we read through the information, uninterrupted, that had been delivered as we left for the meeting, via email.

So far, I have a couple of options to mull over, neither are attractive, I just need to opt for the most attractive of the two, and hope that my decision making does not suck as much as it did when I choose to leave a safe job, for this one.