100%

The determined shadow and subsequent biopsy eventually told us that it is in fact, lung cancer, operable non the less. My main worry is the diagnosis of the kidney and the surrounding area, this is still inconclusive, plus there is the chance that the lung cancer has already spread.

These days are a blur.  Been impossible to concentrate in work.  Waiting for the diagnosis, waiting for the surgery date, helping to organise, helping to pack.  Day of lobectomy, biopsy executed on remaining lobe to check that it hasn't spread.  Kidney diagnosis outstanding, hopefully unrelated to lung.  Made it through op despite the heart murmur and the sticky blood.

I'm holding it together, work is all but tipping me over the edge, doesn't that say something?  Cancer, I can just about deal with, work, not so much. 

This week has been a round of leaving for work at 6.30am, leaving work at 4ish, hospital by 5ish, leave hospital 6.30ish, home after 7.15ish.  Too tired to have a meal, then going to bed about 9.30pm, only to not sleep.

By Thursday night, I was so tired, I wasn't overly confident that I would be able to drive home without having an accident, I deliberately chose the quieter routes home from the hospital. 

Friday and the patient is allowed home, thank God, another week and I would have been in the next bed. 

Couple of weeks yet until the biopsy results are back, everything is in God's hands.  I am going to say it now, 100%, everything is going to be OK.