Down and Out?

I've been a tad down for, oh, well, if you add this to that to the other... probably upwards of ten months, what the hell, let's call it a year.  I know, I know, but we all get down sometimes and speaking for myself, I'm a certified 'Weeble', I may wobble, but I always get back up.  Still, I'm always reading articles that tell me, 'don't ignore' symptoms, and so...

'So what's been going on?' My doctor is five minutes late for my appointment but I appreciate the cut-to-the-chase when she does arrive.  Several minutes later, she's given my the log in code for a   download that she's given me... three times before so far, it's a 'relaxation' download. 

I love my doctor, she's not quick to reach for a script, to dish out medication willy nilly, but when you actually think there may be something, some kind of an imbalance, hormones awry, thyroid awol... a download isn't going to determine that, is it?

It's been four weeks since my doctor's appointment, I haven't 'downloaded' yet, I've decided to up the exercise and bury my head, as per usual.

This last week in work was just awful.  I made a mistake, a human and honest mistake and after meeting with our Information Assurance Manager, was told that it was a mistake just waiting to happen.   Doesn't make me feel any better and my already severely dodgy sleep pattern has been even more eroded by the worry of it all.  Several days in, I have to remind myself that I am a very small cog in a very large wheel, or... something like that.  Do I wish that I could turn back time?  Don't we all wish we were Cher?  But, there is only one Cher and so I have to deal with the fallout, what will be, will be.  To be honest, I blame Mercury, apparently it's in retrograde or some such pickle and it's causing havoc with communication, and so you see, it really wasn't my fault. 

Back to the sleep and I figured out a while ago that my body works best on 8 hours per night, I know that that's a lot but what can you do?  Currently, I'm surviving on about 4 hours max.  It's a horrible habit I've got myself into and I don't know how to escape it.  Ideas?